This day’s challenge literally made me cringe…who wants to remember their lows? Not I…and I have some extreme highs and lows at that. For the sake of my sanity, I’m only going to list one of each.
Last year I was laid off my job of 5 years, along with my entire office. Considering that all of my life decisions are made with a focus/goal of stability in mind, this event felt life shattering. I didn’t know if I was marketable enough to get another job in Chicago (in the same field) earning the same income or if I would even have enough time to search properly. The fear of having to return home was terrifying for me. You’re probably wondering by now, if I placed my “low” in the wrong spot. No…this is going to turn around and into a high lol. After the initial shock set in, moments later I felt a completely different set of emotions. I felt FREE and HOPEFUL. I went straight to my blog and starting writing about my experience and plans for my future – a future that consisted of pulling dreams off the shelf. I executed :) and my life hasn’t been the same since. My layoff resulted in my believing in myself once again and finally chasing after my dreams. What a high!
Last year I also experienced the greatest heartbreak of my entire adult life. I spent a great deal of my 20’s in love with someone that I thought loved me back. I allowed the confusion of our…situationship to drive me crazy. I lost so much of my dignity, self-respect and self-control. I was still learning about love so I didn’t understand that losing all of those things would result in the exact opposite of what I wanted. He was the first man that I allowed to be both my friend and love, so to find out that he was in a relationship (and quite possibly engaged) when we spent time together hit me harder than any other betrayal. The things I sacrificed for him…I
feel felt ashamed and embarrassed. It took a very long time for me to even begin to heal. And even still, its taking me just as long to forgive. Knowing that I loved someone more than I loved myself was my ultimate low point – not just the lowest of the year.