poetry || ferris wheel 365.
I’m on a Ferris wheel
Three sixty five
Afraid of heights
Too cried out to cry.
My cart approaches the ground
Choices to make
Acceptance or change
To break or to make.
Choosing to get off
Acceptance is my decision
Hard leap toward the door
But met with resistance.
The next passenger in line
Drawn to my fear
Confident that he can help
Forces himself near.
I beg him to leave
I don’t want another ride
I want to retreat
I don’t want to try.
My warning disregarded
He closes the door
By the time we reach the top
He’s screaming “no more!”
As he exits my cart
He attacks me with words
Salt to open wound
He deepens the burn.
Next passengers up
I caution them at hello
“Its not safe here for me
Please let me go.”
Just let me ride alone
I’m tired of being attacked
I’m tired of apologizing for me
When I’ve begged you to stay back.
But no one will listen
They all think they know best
I’m stuck in a nightmare
Where my no is their yes.
Nosy Josie
PS: I learned in 2016 not to wait for anyone else to love me. I learned to love myself with all that I am and all that I have. Earlier this week, I came down with a terrible cold that has my head aching. I decided to get up and show myself some of that love by making myself some homemade chicken soup… for the first time! I could taste the self-love in my food. Watch the video below to see it first hand lol.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BQEuTi8lhgZ/?taken-by=nosyjosie
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Beautiful poem and hope u get well. Ummm so Where’s my soup at though😝??
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o0o I ATE IT! hahaha. Don’t worry, I made sure to eat a lot for the both of us. :D. I’m glad you liked my poem! I’m feeling much better. The headaches are still present off and on but they are not as intense. You think that’s strange?
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No its not. I’m learning in therapy about how fascinating our brain is but also how us Blacks have been genetically predisposed to endure trauma. Whether it’s from a relationship, society, poverty, sports, etc, our trauma is magnetized times 10. Part of that is due to the fact that us black men aren’t supposed to cry, but tears have chemicals that we need to release and black women CAN’T express themselves without being labeled the angry black woman. As long as you have an outlet and know that you will feel different on certain days, you will overcome it.
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I should change my tagline to “Just let me ride alone. I’m tired of being attacked” I feel you smh. Another great post from you!
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I’m glad you got my bottom line message :). I knew you would understand. Thank you as always (and I see you’re doing some catch-up reading lol. I finished my last night.) I’m going to start working on my February article pretty soon. I decided to try and be consistent with 1 article a month lol.
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Of course I did! Yep I’m trying to show love to all my followers and read a few of everyone’s pieces. Can’t wait to read it! Good luck with that consistency I haven’t quite mastered it yet myself lol
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The crazy thing about this… I’m terrified of Ferris wheels. Lmao. The message is so pure. I would to collage with you on a post similar I won’t to do.
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Are you?! LOL is it the height or just how they hover in the air for some time? I’m not terrified of ferris wheels – but I AM terrified of what the ferris wheel is symbolic for in this poem.
I’m not sure I understood your last sentence though – run that by me again King.
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Sorry. My phone is slow. But collaborate on a similar post I want to do. Lol sorry.
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haha I got you. I would love to collab on a post. Let me know what you need from me and I’ll be down. – mindjobusiness@gmail.com
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I emailed you.
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awesome! Let me check it out :D
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Wow. Your pen game is ill. I dig this poem. The last two stanzas are especially powerful. That is a relationship dynamic I am familiar with and have experienced. That soup looks awesome – hope you are feeling better!
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Thank you! I appreciate that 😃. Im feeling much better! My spirit is sad today though. Send some peace my way, will ya?
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Aww. I am sending positive vibes your way … and a song! Whenever I am down, this is one of my favorites that I zone out to. 😀 Hope you like it!
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Okay Darryl! You better bring that old school vibe changer. I love this because it has a mix of nostalgia + motivation. Its something dope about a song that makes me reminisce while motivating at the same time. This is awesome, thank you!
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Glad you liked it ☺
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I’m so loving these lines, the message, and conclusion! Yes Queen ♥
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Thank you so much Egypt! :D
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