2:35 am ][ a different Josie

I remember my first blog.  Vulnerable…honest…transparent…imperfect.  I didn’t care what I exposed about myself because I didn’t know I had reason to be ashamed.  I documented every moment of my relocation to Chicago – that is until I met “him.”

I blogged about the crazy adventures I went on- alone.  I blogged about rescuing my cat from the 5th story window of my high-rise apartment.  I blogged about meeting my online “boyfriend” of 2 years for the first time.  I blogged about the car ride with a stranger (who I thought I knew) who mistook me for a prostitute.  I  blogged about the time I questioned my dad’s love for me.  I blogged about my goals and how I felt I would never accomplish them.

Today I reflected on that version of myself who blogged so openly and felt an intense longing.  Back then I knew no one was watching – so I blogged without a censor.  Until I met “him.” I’m ready to be that version of myself again.  So every night before bed (and maybe even more often than that), I’ll write for me.  No articles, no motivational posts…just me and my thoughts in their rawest form.  Unedited – just the way I used to…before I met “him.”   And just maybe I’ll open up about “him” one day.

Nosy Josie  JE1