3:05 pm ][ urgent dreams.

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Last night I had the most amazing dream.  It was so silent… but left me with this crazy loud afterthought when I woke.  It was about a black boy…a black boy with an afro and a book-bag.

 He was fairly young, around 12-14. And he was fascinated with protests and civil unrest.  I mean…fascinated!  Whenever demonstrations would fill the city streets, this boy was right there on the sidelines.  I could literally feel his passion in my dream.He wanted so desperately to join the protests but his mother had forbidden him from doing so; told him that he would feel her wrath in every inch of his body if he did.  So he stuck to the sidelines and watched intently.  He watched everything crying mothers, angry fathers, compassionate police officers, aggressive police officers, fearful business owners, supportive business owners…

He read the protesters signs – stained with frustrated black ink.  He observed the passion in their chants and the urgency in their walk. He wanted to march so badly. But fearing his mother, he found satisfaction in whispering the chants under his breath instead.

People would always ask him “What do you want to be when you grow up kid?”  For years, his answer was the same, “I want to be a protester.”  And every time, people would laugh and tell him “That’s not a career boy.  Be realistic!”  But to him, protesting was realistic.  So when he turned 16 and the opportunity presented itself again, he protested.  Well as it turned out…his protesting actually led to him becoming one of the biggest civil rights activist of his time.  Quite the career!

What those people told this kid while growing up was no different from what a lot of us hear our whole life.  That there are hobbies and then there are careers. And that we shouldn’t really bank on the two merging; especially if our hobbies don’t appear to offer any monetary gain.

So we take all of those “insignificant passions” that we have and pocket them away as hobbies or wishful thinking instead.  Miserably refocusing our goals to fit someone else’s standard or idea of success.  And then we wonder why we aren’t fully satisfied in what we do everyday for a living.

But what would you be doing today if you hadn’t disregarded your passions as being unrealistic? If you would have just followed your first instinct rather than listening to society, your ego or your insecurities.  Because every time I press “publish” on this site, I wonder exactly that.  What would have happened if I had just followed my first instinct and went to school for Journalism?  Or if I would have launched that local magazine I wrote up a business plan for in college.

My dream reinforced for me exactly what I needed to hear –  don’t set aside your “small” dreams in order to chase “bigger” ones you don’t even care about.  If you’re curious about where your hobby or passion can take you, then explore it.  The worst thing that can happen is that you walk away with no regrets.

Nosy Josie heart JE14

via Daily Prompt: Urgent

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7 Comments on 3:05 pm ][ urgent dreams.

  1. Wait, so your degree isn’t in journalism, this is just natural for your to write in such a captivating way? Lol wow. I know what you mean. IF I could have dreamed big and did whatever I wanted to do I would have done something such as write for a movie or direct films, shows, etc. I have jokes and storylines…I could have been the next Jerry Senifeld (sp) with shows about “nothing” lol

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    • lol you’re too sweet! I was accepted to University of Missouri-Columbia (Mizzou) but turned it down to go to a school that didn’t offer a strong journalism program. I was afraid of going to a big school smh. If only I can turn back the hands of time. I LOVE that you would have went into directing, possibly. The next Melanin Monday that I post will be PERFECT for you so make sure you watch it. You know what’s crazy? All of those shows have older actors – so its not too late for you to try starring in one. Maybe it doesn’t have to be one that’s crazy big, but an independent film instead. You can take classes and everything!

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    • In response to Twrightloveblog, It’s never too late to go after your dreams. If you woke up this morning, you have the chance to redirect your life in the way in which you want to go. And yup i know that every has a job that is taking up their time but is when you have to learn to sacrifice other things in order to work towards your dreams during your spare time.

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  2. Thanks cousin! This just gave me the push I needed to pursue my dream!

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    • Now THAT makes my day! Whatever your dreams are, don’t let them slip away. Life has a way of distracting us but imagine where a little more focus and courage would take us!


  3. tunisiajolyn84 // January 12, 2017 at 6:53 am // Reply

    I love this! Great reminder to live out our passions as much as we can for our sanity’s sake. Thanks for sharing this wonderful story.

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